Can't wait!!!!

Next semester is going to be busy busy busy...I can already tell! But it's going to be soooo awesome!!!! (: Here's a link to my schedule for next semester, plus I'm taking english online. :O    

Fall 2012 schedule

Don't push me cause I'm close to the edge...

I'm losing it...I'm soooo tired of my parents controlling my life, but is there anything I can do about it? Nope..nothing. And it's unbelievably hard for me to just bite my tongue and let them treat me like a puppet. I just wish that they would understand that it's MY life and I'm not a child anymore, like they still treat me. I wish that I was smart enough to get all A's so I could get scholarships for college. I don't know if I really want to be a teacher anymore or keep getting student loans, because I honestly don't want to have to worry about paying them off. I want to be able to get (and keep) a job and go to school, all at the same time. I want to be out of this house! I don't think that my parents and I will EVER see eye-to-eye on certain things. I'm tired of people pointing out to me of how little teachers get paid and I'm tired of letting it get to me. I'm highly considering changing my major AND transferring. My emotions are sooo up & down these days and it's because I can't even afford to buy my medicine (the whole $10/month that it costs). Most the time I just feel like either sleeping or crying, which is probably not a good sign. There's nothing really I can do about ANY of this. I am currently applying for scholarships but I don't know how well that's going to help. I have a job, a kinda part-time (2 weekends before I go back to school) one. But that's going to be hard to get to since I have no money and no car. And I can't move out, because I have nowhere to go and again....NO money. So basically, I'm screwed, and I don't see how that could possibly change. Just when I think I'm going to get to live my own life, make my own decisions, and be treated like an adult...this is what happens. I need to get out of this but I can't. I'm losing it....